Well, this semester has been much less stressful than the last one was. So far, anyway. I do have quite a few things going on like I did last semester, but the main difference is that I no longer have 5 senior-level classes all at once and I don’t have the ever-looming huge dark cloud of graduate school application due dates looming over my head. So, these things are better.
The thing that is not better?
My honors project. I’m going to that meeting in Chicago in March, right? Well, they want completed papers to be given to the panel chairs by the 15th of February. Personally, I think they’re all insane, but I’m told that I have to play by the rules. This really wouldn’t be a problem if I had the paper written. Or if I had a draft. Or if I knew what I really wanted to say in it. Well, I know what I want to say, but I don’t quite know how to say it. I know I will eventually find a way, though. My adviser also told me that it will be okay if I focus on the easy part of this project (analyzing Fargo using criminological and psychological theories) for the presentation and then add on the hard parts (discussing the effects other films and the culture have had on Fargo, as well as Fargo’s effects on other films and the culture–I’m not a film critic, eep!) later for the final due date at the end of the semester, which will make things easier on me. So, this part isn’t that bad.
Want to know the thing that really really sucks?
I am so totally lacking in motivation that it’s quite sad. I really don’t know what kind of motivation I need other than that very soon due date, but apparently I need something!
Someone light a fire under my ass, please!
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